13 thoughts on “Hiatus”

  1. If you ever find yourself in NYC, look me up and we should grab tea; I also follow world politics through a philosophical lens, and I’m sure we’d have some great conversations. I often have a tough time finding people who understand enough that their opinions have weight, and while we have substantial disagreements on some matters, I respect your perspective.

  2. AK,

    Sorry to hear you haven’t been well. Get some rest and go easy on yourself. I’ve had the same a few years ago and it is a frightening experience.

  4. I wish you a speedy recovery. I’ve had emotional problems of my own, though of a different sort – insomnia. Couldn’t catch a minute of sleep for many days at a time, probably slept 2 or 3 hours a night on average for many months on end. It went away by itself, without any meds, months after I resigned myself to always living with it. Just gradually went away for no apparent reason.

    • No meds isn’t really an option for me. During the worst of it a few days ago I was periodically going stark raving bonkers in public, alternating from panic to uncontrolled euphoria and laughter… madman giggling at the center of the public square type of stuff… not a sustainable form of existence.

      I would strongly recommend seeing a doctor next time that happens. They are of course fallible but is feeling shit for months on end really worth it?

  5. Dear Anatoly,

    Very sorry to learn about this. As someone with a history of depression I promise you there is an end to it. I know. I have been there and back. You are doing exactly the right thing by giving yourself a rest. Remember also you have friends you can talk to. I am one if you need me.

    • Thank you Alex, the support is much appreciated.

      Although panic disorder is often associated with depression (which I did have, but many years ago) this is really not the case now. No desire to kill or hurt myself, pro-active, and enjoying life – well, except to the extent that the panic attacks put a damper on things in the past two weeks. Can’t really enjoy life *that* much under those conditions.

      My primary feeling towards this is actually annoyance (which, I realize, probably isn’t helping things) due to this having torpedoed my productivity – at least until today, when I got prescribed clonazepam, which seems to work very well.

  6. Hey, I’ve enjoyed reading your blog. Take it easy, be sure to exercise and get ample rest (I find meditation is great if I can find the time). Best regards.

  8. Thank you all for your concern. It is appreciated.

    Clonazepam has patched up my mind enough for me restart social functioning after the nightmare that was this past week. From now on it will be therapy. The silver lining is that now it would also be a good time to explore stuff like yoga/meditation and acupuncture.

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